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@messmerism

charlie - no pronouns (he/she sparingly) - 20s
- unlabeled androgynous femme -

BYF - my s/is are all Literally Just Me with slight setting alterations. you’re always welcome to rb content of f/os i'm comfortable sharing from me, as long as it’s to a self-ship blog and not a fandom/main blog. i consume media very critically!! i will do my best to tag anything suggestive with #suggestive.DNI - proship/variants, if you’re racist homophobic transphobic zionist etc. i also ask, for my comfort, that if you’re under 16 to please not follow.likes - soulsborne, dragon's dogma, nbc hannibal, tori amos, wong kar wai films, john william waterhouse, fate series, susanne sundfor, rupaul's drag race, dragon ball, nature, medieval fantasy, kpop, bbc in the flesh, squid game, OFF (game), drakenier, haunting ground, metal gear.i kin for fun and to cope, i don't mind doubles as long as you don't mind me :^)IDs - hitagi senjougahara (monogatari), miquella (elden ring), furiae (drakengard)KINS - punkie/blondie (fallen angels 1995), sally (the nightmare before christmas), totoko yowai (osomatsu-san), sakura matou (fate), piglet (winnie the pooh), cynder (spyro), nadeko sengoku (monogatari), lisa mishima (zankyou no terror), clarisse mcclellan (fahrenheit 451), greg (otgw), bmo + flame princess (adventure time), thiollier (elden ring), the milfanito (dark souls 2), amalthea (the last unicorn), seere (drakengard), charlotte york (satc)mass likes/reblogs ok !!

♣️Deishu Kaiki
Sharing: no
Shipped w/ Since: sometime before 2019
Song: Leif Erikson - Interpol
Quick summary: Deishu and I have a long and grueling situationship, that started after I sought him out after hearing tales of him from a friend, who he once ran a con on. He's hard to find and even harder to keep around, with a deep compulsion to make others dislike him.I, however, cannot let him go once I get to know him. For all his bad, he cares for others deeply in his own maladaptive way. He's one of the only people who really gets me, and vice versa, so we're bound forever.

🐍Messmer The Impaler
Sharing: no
Anniversary: june 29th 2024
Song: Beauty and the Beast - Stevie Nicks
Quick summary: Messmer and I meet when I'm brought to the Shadow Keep to provide healing services, far after the crusades against the Hornsent have basically stopped. He deals with chronic pain, and my reputation as a talented healer had reached his loyal knights.As I work with him to tailor his medicine, we slowly learn more about eachother. Although he found himself enchanted by me early on, it took me some time not to be intimidated by him. But finding out elements of our pasts are shockingly similar, we form an unshakable and unique bond.

💒Kirei Kotomine
Sharing: no
Anniversary: april 19th 2020
Song: Mercy In You - Depeche Mode
Quick summary: In an attempt to start getting out of the house more, I take a walk around the neighborhood, looking for good places I could hang out. I happen upon a beautiful church with a beautiful garden, and a beautiful preist. I start visiting the garden often, and eventually the two of us start to strike up conversation.From there, everything falls into place. I come by frequently to have long, deep conversations with Kirei. We never date or label ourselves, but eventually I move into the church with him, under the pretense of helping out with chores around the church. Before we know it, we start acting like an old married couple.

❤Silco
Sharing: mutuals who ship with him currently are fine! you're also fine to follow back if i follow first! otherwise, no. please do not ship with him if i'm the one who introduces you to him. i love making mutuals who shipped with him before knowing me, though! he is very popular, it can't be avoided, lol. please just respect my boundaries!
Anniversary: january 26th 2023
Song: Spiracle - Flower Face
Quick summary: When a young Jinx runs away from home in a frustrated fit, we stumble into each other. Concerned for her safety, I try my best to figure out what's wrong and keep her as safe and occupied as I can. The two of us seem to naturally click, and eventually Silco manages to track her down, which is how we meet.Jinx pulls the stunt a few more times, now having someone she can go to. Eventually, being at the end of his rope, Silco accepts my offer to officially help him manage and care for Jinx. Of course, Silco and I get closer too, and eventually fall in love.

🎆Toraidio Moreno-Soto
Sharing: no
Anniversary: july 3rd 2021
Song: Half a Million Miles from Home - Diane Cluck
Quick summary: Toraidio and I meet at a party through a mutual friend. We get off on the wrong foot, but Toraidio is amicable, and starting to develop a crush. After being in the same places together quite often because of our mutual friends, we find, in passing, that we actually have a lot in common. We eventually agree to start getting to know each other from scratch. We become incredibly close friends over the course of a year, before entering in a friends with benefits situation.It doesn't last very long or go very well, as both of us are clearly holding back a lot of love for each other. Eventually it all comes to a point, and we end up officially together!

Mains

I’m not comfy sharing Kirei, Deishu, Messmer or Toraidio. I'm not comfortable sharing Silco unless I follow first, mutuals who currently ship with him are fine.Click the button to find out more about them!

♣️Deishu Kaiki (Monogatari)
🐍Messmer (Elden Ring)
💒Kirei Kotomine (Fate/Stay Night)
❤Silco (Arcane)
🎆Toraidio Moreno-Soto (OC)

Secondaries

Totally ok with sharing, except Ignitus, as he is very special to me!

🍂🏰Lorian (Dark Souls 3)
🕊Mithrun (Dungeon Meshi)
🪓Gascoigne (Bloodborne)
🔥Ignitus (The Legend of Spyro)
📈Samuel Hayden (Doom 2016)
📚🐛Gohan Son (DBS)
🍵Zamasu & Goku Black (DBS) - [poly]

Tertiaries

Totally ok with sharing as well, except any that are OCs!

🦁🌷Beren (Dragon's Dogma 2)
🔪Revenant (Apex Legends)
⛓Eygon of Carim (Dark Souls 3)
💍Ringfinger Leonhard (Dark Souls 3)
🥼Hal "Otacon" Emmerich (MGS)
🌆Kim Kitsuragi (Disco Elysium)
🐺Blaidd (Elden Ring)
🌹White Mask Varré (Elden Ring)
🌸🧪Thiollier (Elden Ring)
🌌Wylder + Guardian (Nightreign)
🦴Undertaker (Nightreign)
🧡Wolf (Sekiro)
🪦🐇Yuria of Londor (Dark Souls 3)
🌱Lir (Dragon's Dogma 2 OC)
🪔Maahes (Dragon's Dogma 2 OC)
🐟Sullivan Charles (OC)

Mega-Casual

Totally ok with sharing, I'll probably only post about these guys a lot less often, but they're of course still just as important to me! :D

❄️Nier (Nier Replicant)
🥕Goku Son - (DBS)
🐦Ryis (Fields of Mistria)
🫐Balor (Fields of Mistria)
🐉🧺Caldarus (Fields of Mistria)
🎣Will Graham (NBC Hannibal)
🥪Joey Tribbiani (Friends)
🔩Franken Stein (Soul Eater)
🏞Brant (Dragon's Dogma 2)
🌫☕Edmond Dantès (Fate)
🦭Jiren (DBS)
💜😼Beerus (DBS)
🚬Takayuki Hori (Undercurrent)
🥥Anton Chigurh (No Country For Old Men)
🏕Ignis Scientia (FFXV)
🕯Laurence (Bloodborne)
⚖Teru Mikami (Death Note)
🍢Osomatsu Matsuno (Osomatsu-San)
🍊Close To You (Secret F/O)
🍃🎐Asylums For The Feeling - group tag for assorted FGO F/Os (Hajime Saito, Cú Chulainn Alter, First Hassan, Iori Miyamoto, Ashiya Douman, Emiya, Agravain.)

Crushes

Imperfect Cell (DBZ)

Platonics

🦀🌺Hitagi Senjougahara (Monogatari)
🥗Vegeta (DBZ) - [fatherly figure]
😇Whis (DBS)
💙🧨Jinx (Arcane) - [adoptive daughter]
🦾Sevika (Arcane)
👑Ludleth (Dark Souls) - [fatherly figure]
💰🥾 Patches (Soulsborne)
🍋Lemongrab (Adventure Time)
💎Isaac Abrams (VTMB) - [fatherly figure]
💋Velvet Velour (VTMB)
🌑Knight of Noir - Ranni & Braithwaite (Elden Ring x Tarnished OC)
🏵Miquella (Elden Ring)
🌻Lady Maria (Bloodborne)
⚒Iji (Elden Ring) - [fatherly figure]
🌿🃏Ashiya “Limbo” Douman (Fate)
🧙Merlin (Fate)
💐Circe (Fate)
💊Shotaro Kaneda (Akira)
🐥Chocobros - Prompto Argentum, Noctis Lucis Caelum, Gladiolus Amicita (FFXV)
🌕Lunafreya Nox Fleuret (FFXV)
🏆No holy grail; just an empty cup - Assorted Fate franchise characters